Marcus blog update from 7/17
|What is it that is bringing people to William Roddington?
Does anyone remember Marty's last words to us? "If they (referring to Jude and I) didn't make it, destroy it. TobI can get you killed like he did me." Since I don't see any use for the program I am going to try to follow Marty's last wishes. His program has the potential of making the world a very unsafe place. The program has already made Amboy an unsafe place. I don't understand his logic. Is this his last attempt at making a spot in history for himself? Is he only doing this for his personal gain and not the ideal of the technology is good for the world? I can't believe after seeing two of his most loved students die for TobI that he would continue to try to take TobI back. I am frustrated he is not abiding by a wish from the grave. My only conclusion is he sees higher purpose. As to what that is, we'll see.
Another person who will be around to witness first hand his search will be Melody. She has felt 'mistreated' at Ideltech, and I am upset she feels whatever goes on in her life had no effect with the rest of Ideltech's. That philosophy is selfish and self-righteous. She is idealistic and naive. She trusts the wrong people as we have witnessed in her past, and I feel she also trusts the wrong people now. Many people take advantage of her approachable nature and take advantage of her. As an open book she is horrible for intelligence and keeping secrets, and some advantageous Restorers are already finding her weakness out. Maybe her departure in the long run will be advantageous to Ideltech. We don't have the liability of her having information we know being handed over to anyone she trusts (and the list is long), but we have the advantage of her freely handing out information to anyone who asks. The funny thing is she reads this, and I don't think her behavior will alter in the slightest.
Which leads me to my next topic. Am I clairvoyant or are all women predictable. Rose was extremely predictable. I pretended to hand her some 'information' only to give her 'misinformation' which I knew within hours would be spread. And it was. I believe for a while there was confusion amongst everyone but Ideltech. The funny thing is, if I want something to be known to everyone I can always count on those two women to pass the information along like Jehovah Witnesses. The 'woman network' rarely seems to falter for me. Once when in college, this girl caught my attention. I didn't know how to approach her, so I waited for an opportunity. I noticed she sat next to someone in the class and had Jude stand next to me in the library while I pretended to express my interest. Her classmate was within ear shot and passed the message along for me. A week later the hottie called me. I know my own game well, so I make sure any information I am given is tested. Han's would always tell me he "Never control's Air Traffic on assumption." I suppose that philosophy is a good one to go by. Why spend twenty bucks to pick which shell the nut is under if there is a chance at loss. Just wait for someone else to make the mistake.
Fear has consumed me, and fear is what is happening with me and Ideltech. No more. No longer am I "running scared." I am going to direct a "pro-active" launch in the right direction. I am not saying we are going to be reckless and stupid, but we are going to more pro-active than reactive. I am done worrying about life and if I could lose more. I have already loss enough, and my life is barely worth living in the state it is in right now anyhow. Time to fight back and fight forward. We will find TobI and we will start looking NOW.
As to my being predictable in spreading information, I can only assume he is referring to my posting here. FYI, comments can be added to his blog.