So, I know this is going to sound really, I dunno, elitist or something, but...
Well, I've been working on this game since late Oct, early Nov. I had about four or five players, that grew into ten or fifteen, and that made me SO happy. But, then they all had all these issues that kept them from playing, it was like my game was fucking Amityville or something, ALL my players had people die in their family or something and all but three of them left. I was SO happy to have just three, really! Best three players a PM could wish for! But, recently, the two others ALSO left for personal reasons (giving a big OOG apology that was really cool but also made me sad) so, well... I've only got one actual player left.
And my trailhead hasn't been updated since like January, so... I can't see myself getting any players anytime soon. Add in a lot of other stuff that this game has somehow made it though by the fingernails (losing ALL the files on my computer, including a 10 page document I was meant to give to a player that very next day!; a few depression boughts/bipolar episodes/suicide attempts (not triggered by the game, but certainly didn't help the game at all)) I just feel like Fate or whoever the Powers That Be are telling me just not to evne bother running this game....
But, on the other hand, I REALLY want to see this game though to the end. I've got this one thing I've foreshadowed for a few months now that is right around the corner, but it takes at least three players to pull off... A whole three months worth of planned things until the big finale, i'm just SO EXCITED.
I don't know what to do. I really love this game, it's my baby and I've had a lot of fun with it. But at the same time... I've got ONE person playing it with no real chance of getting anyone else.
Any ideas/tips/anything? ;-; I can't really figure out what to do. I WANT this game to continue, I REALLY REALLY do. But, is it really worth it if only ONE person is playing? After all this crap i've gone through to make it work so far? :s What do you guys think?
/ranting and whining session
Posted: Thu Mar 29, 2012 11:08 pm